Seen and Anchored

Ever feel like every day is the same? Get up try and use the bathroom before little mouths wake up hungry, immediately get breakfast on the table, try to spend some time with God, throw on a movie or show that has already been asked for like the 400th time, just as you are about to eat yourself your adorable 5 month old wakes up so that's out because he needs to nurse. Your older son is watching T.V. your youngest is nursing and just to have some "you" time you are on your phone checking Facebook. It's not even 9 in the morning. Many mornings go by with this same routine it can get boring at times. Today however I got a beautiful "download" from God about how to see the mundane days of being a stay at home mom. Turn with me to John 6. The story of Jesus feeding the five thousand struck me in a fresh way this morning. No one could have predicted what miracle was about to take place from such an ordinary lunch. I'm sure a lot of people could read over this...

My Story:    I am the youngest of three.   I don ’ t remember a time when my parents got along. My mom had more of a passive personality and my dad was more overbearing, and so the combination was wrought with failure from the start.   They divorced when I was 10, and the three of us siblings stayed with my dad per their agreement.   My mom remarried a few years later and went on to have 2 more children when I was in high school. I remember feeling very afraid in the beginning. And missing my mom all the time. We saw her maybe once a week. And once she was established with her second family, the visits were less frequent. I did not end up having a close connection with her despite her being a part of my life up until she passed a few years ago.   My dad loved us, no doubt about it, but struggled in his own ways with how to parent, especially on his own.  We grew up with a  “ power-over ”  parenting paradigm.   I remember being uncertain ...